When you find not being uncommon is so common

I stood there by her side, touched her with my eyes Yes! I saw something there and felt it down to my heart. You see it's so common to to find yourself uncommon that we eventually can't expect the fact that there would be someone like us in billions around us. We think that we can heal the one who went with what happened to us when we couldn't even heal ourselves. You see it's so unreal that we feel ourselves to be alive that sometimes we just couldn't feel our own senses. It's so stupid that though I can feel the outside touch yet I battle to feel my own breath. 

It's stupid right how all these things doesn't really match up, YES! But they will, every word will. Will be writing all that down in a few days, explaining everyone one by one and then connecting the threads :)

Will it end!! The pain?

 Is it like I have no control over anything that happens to me. Well they say I do. If it's so then why is it that every time I start doing it, the hopelessness underveils the curtains. Does it end?
What about things that aren't in my control?Who is it gonna be when billions like myself end up at same place, fighting the odds to be the one above all.
The way we interact, live, love, hope, desire, feel pain. Are all these different for everyone. It starts with someone's pain to be a joker and ends up with someone's smile trying to spend a nice evening.
The way we connect, socalize has to have atleast some breaches now to let the fresh air pass.
Yes, the pain is mutual and there gonna be a day when everyone gonna RESPECT it for being in the life. We say it hits at the wrong time, but that's gonna be one thing you will know you were wrong about standing at the hill of happiness and remembering the clouds of loneliness.

Midnight to rising Sun

Someone once said, "It doesn't matter if you are on ground or near the limitless sky, you will always feel the touch of the infinite universe full of longingness  .Then that tear in your eye will turn those blue stars into a rising sun and you won't be able to know how the time passed. For the first time you were circling around your desires beneath those hopes :) Only one thing was missing, the warmth of your companion wasn't there sir. But there was something else to take that place too, the chirping of birds."

Have you ever remembered someone walking down that memory lane

Have you ever felt happy outside, but then ending up crying. Ever felt like dancing around with somebody, but then ending up standing alone beneath the sky counting the stars. Or maybe wanting to put your head on someone who you think is the only one listening to you, but then realizing that the warmth of your cushion is not as good  as that person. Holding his hand while walking down the street, but then again putting your hands inside your pocket realizing that would never happen again. Or in evening sitting in the park with that person whispering in your ear about the mischiefs, but then eventually wearing you hat because of that chilly wind grooming around your ears. On a beach side listening to the voices of happiness and laughter, and yet there again with the high tide crushing all those little sounds of your castle. 

Have you ever remembered someone walking down that memory lane.

He was afraid of his own shadow

"A person who sees a world without eyes is the only one who can tell the difference between a truth and a lie, because he doesn't have to rely on what the facts are and what he see. "

                                 Said  a blind man when I met him at his repair shop

Ali lost his eyesight in a accident 6 years ago. He used to repair electric item then and now get them for his wife to repair, so that they can feed their two children. Though  loosing eyes made him feel miserable but he is now happy to have seen an another world in those dark patches.

Every day  he goes to his shop himself with just a stick in his hand and some repaired stuff. People come to him pay for the repairs and move on without even thinking how that man was breaking the odds needed to live on this earth. They are all busy to do something or other and guess what they don't even know for what are they doing this. 

"Sometimes I feel desolated and incomplete for being like this. It's really hard to imagine what is going around you and to cope up with it. I am not afraid of anything  but my own shadow, it's the only thing I  cannot differentiate with those black skies around me.

 Everyday when you close your eyes you know already that a new day is ready to arrive in your life with freshness of sunshine and those calm features of nature. What I can do is just feel those shiny rays on my face and silent features of the beautiful world around me.

There is a good and a bad becoming like me. The bad, I can't see what others can  and the good, they can't see what I can and feel :) "  That huge smile on his face drew me like mad . Why was that so , I couldn't understand him. But then he said

        

            If you want to see the world in another way ………..  just close your eyes.

I still can't figure out what he wanted to say. Sometimes I stand near a road and close my eyes, listening to the strange voices and only one question arises in my mind at that time which Ali asked me "DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE, RIGHT NOW AT THIS PLACE AND THIS TIME STANDING IN THE MIDDLE OF A SEA WHERE YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHICH TIDE CAN TEAR YOU APART ."